This is an article that Shagufta, my friend and member of Creative Mumz has sent to be added to the Creative Mumz newsletter. I thought I could post it here instead for all of you to read.
“Before I was a Mom, I ate hot meals. I would sit at the table without
having to get up for extra napkins, ketchup, or to pick up the spoon that
was hurdled across the room. I never had to say, Clean your plate or no
dessert! I was able to talk on the phone for hours at a time without interruptions.Before I was a Mom, I slept as late as I wanted and never worried about
what time I got into bed. My house was always clean. There were never dishes in the sink or crumbs left on the table. I never tripped over toys or made up my own games or a lullaby to sooth a crying baby.
Before I was a Mom, I didn’t worry whether my plants were poisonous, if the
coffee table had sharp corners or if the electrical sockets were exposed. I had complete control of my mind, my thoughts, my body
and all my feelings and emotions.
Before I was a Mom, I never held down a screaming child so that doctors
could do tests or give shots. I never thought about immunizations or
learned how to read a thermometer. I never looked into teary eyes and
cried with compassion. I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin. I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn’t stop the
hurt. I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much.
I never knew that I could love someone so unconditionally.
Before I was a Mom, I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn’t want
to put it down or stayed up late at night just to watch it sleep so
peacefully. I didn’t know the feeling of having my heart outside my
body. I didn’t know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby.
Before I was a Mom, I had never gotten out of bed in the middle of the
night to make sure that everyone was covered with blankets and had their
teddy bear & just in case.
Before I was a Mom, I didn’t know I was capable of feeling so much. I had
never known the warmth, the joy, the love, the heartache or the
satisfaction that being a Mom can bring. I never knew just how much I
would love being a mom. I never fully understood my own mother’s joys and
sorrows. I didn’t appreciate everything she did for me or really thank her
enough for the wisdom she shared. Before I was a mom I never loved my
mother the same way I do now.
My life has changed & there is no doubt about it, but there isn’t anything
I would be willing to do or any gift I’d be willing to receive to go back
to the days of Before I was a Mom.”